first things first...Merry Christmas everyone! shane, loved the picture of your house. it looks great.

so anyway, about four months ago i finally went full-time at a new job. yea for me! the job market is so bad and i had been searching for full-time employment ever since we realized the depth of therapies that esmond would need and that one of us were going to have to stay home for at least a year.

that stay home job fell on daddy's shoulders since he's a subcontractor and his work had already been very, very slow since the economy tanked a couple of years ago or so.

he still gets a gig every now and then, but it had been awhile until this weekend. farm bureau is having a bing wingding at the marriot in franklin and my hubby got the call to come do his thing (he's an audio/video tech).

Follow up:

the timing worked out well because it was my sunday and monday off which were the two days he needed. but, it has been a long, long time since i have had both of the children at home by myself for a long time and boy...am i worn the crap out!

while esmond has come a long way with therapies (signing in sentences, doesn't throw his food, plays fairly well, gives kisses and hugs) he still has quite a temper when he is not getting what he wants. he screams, and not only is it low, it is high and shrill! and sometimes last for 10 minutes at a time.

he wants something he can't have...he screams. he doesn't want to watch something maxie does...he screams. he doesn't want to share something...he screams. oh god! i have never been so happy to be going back to work tomorrow.

i feel bad about it. i am his mother and i love him very much, but i have to give my husband a lost of respect and anything else he may want. he handles it like a pro day in and day out and deals with it so calmly and patiently. i felt like i was going to pull my hair out a couple of times.

anyway, i know the day may come when i am back at home again full-time so i better toughen up. he's a delightful little boy and i am sure he will grow out of these tantrums as he gets older. i know it is normal for children to throw tantrums at his age (he will be three in february), but for esmond it is like a tantrum from a child on steroids! he can't or won't speak and so he screams and throws himself on the floor and kicks and hits the floor. all you can do is ignore it. eventually he stops when he realizes it will do no good, but those few minutes are insane!

so, again...thank god for daddy!