good evening all.

i have decided to going back to typing in small letters again. just to let you know. it is much easier and i spend so much of my day being grammatically correct. it is nice for a break.

so anyway, it is april. autism awareness month. wow! did you wear blue? did anyone ask you why you were wearing blue? i wore blue and nobody said a thing.

i do not get a chance to watch to much news, but from what i have heard the networks didn't really cover world autism day very well. there were a few small clips; like tossing a bone to a dog.

Follow up:

so i am sitting here by myself in the dark outside on my laptop. my children are asleep. there are a few lights around the garden. it is actually quite lovely. i am not at peace however. i am thinking about social security benefits and uping my life insurance. i am thinking about the day when i told sir dantes "stop, come back" about seven or eight times every minute when he was outside. i am wondering who will have his back when me and his father are gone. i am thinking about health care reform and whether or not it will really protect him.

i am thinking about his sister too. will she take care of him? is it fair to ask her? if she does, will she find a mate that will understand? she is so smart and beautiful. should she give up whatever it is she may want out of life?

yea, wear that blue. does anyone really know what it means?